Forgive me, Pat.

Man..I'm on a roll!

Last night I was channel surfing and I came across an episode of the 700 Club with Pat Robertson. Normally when this happens I let out a loud shriek and go grab a towel to wipe the blood from my eyes, but last night was different. I decided to watch a few minutes.

It was "Write Pat" time, as I like to call it. The first letter or email that was written in was as follows (and I'm paraphrasing here):

"Dear Pat,

My husband has worked for the same company for nearly 30 years. We have always spent every dollar that we make. Lately, we have began to fear that several jobs within his company will be eliminated, and he could be laid off in 6 months. What would you suggest we do to prepare ourselves in case this situation arises?

Cindy"

Well Cindy, I appreciate you writing in to me and making it look like the viewers of my show are a bunch of absent minded knuckleheads who counted down the weeks until their 16th birthday so they could drop out of school and join the team at the local Shop N Save!

My. Goodness...........Seriously.

Pat gave the usual advice, "Uhh, start saving you peabrain!"

Here's what REALLY struck me as odd. This is almost April, 6 months would lead us to October. Pat SHOULD have told her that it didn't freakin' matter because according to his "prophecy" most of America will be getting blown up this September!

Go on Cindy! Splurge til' your satisfied! Hell, whip out the plastic if you want to! None of it's gonna matter anyway; come October you and your husband will most likely be dust!

Who does he think he his prophesying the demise of the majority of the developed world and then keeping it to himself! Cindy, if I were you I'd void that support check you wrote last week and buy momma a new pair of shoes instead!

Me.

Several weeks ago in my personality class I took a 400 some-odd questionnaire to determine my personality profile. Here are the results. Let me know how accurate you think it is.

1. Your answers to the test protocol suggest that you are an emotionally sensitive individual who is prone to the experience of feelings that are upsetting -- feelings like self-criticism, sadness, worry, guilt, or anger. You may feel "fragile" when stress occurs or when you imagine it is likely to occur.

2. You appear to be a person who is extroverted, outgoing, active, and high-spirited. You prefer to be around people most of the time. You probably are reasonably assertive or have the capacity to become so, and you have a good capacity for experiencing positive emotions.

3. Your answers on the test set further suggest that you are practical but willing to consider new ways of doing things. You seek a balance between the old and the new, avoiding the extremes of dogmatism and "new age" unconventionality.

4. You are generally warm, trusting and agreeable, but you can sometimes be stubborn or competitive, especially when your rights need to be defended.

5. Finally, your test answers imply that you are a well-organized and dependable individual. You generally have clear goals but sometimes set your work aside to pursue other interesting or pleasurable activities; you may occasionally have trouble getting the job started.

Blogger Interrupted

March came.

Thank GOD its leaving.

Not much of a post really, just wanted to let you all know I was still alive and kicking. Several random thoughts lie ahead.

Spring is finally here! I realized that today when I was at Kroger and the fruit seemed so much fresher! I bought fresh(not prepackaged) oranges, bananas, tomatoes, pears, and a cantaloupe. The tomatoes are gone, oranges are half gone, and the cantaloupe was a great after dinner treat. I love spring.

I really love this spring. It represents the end of the DREADFUL winter I just went through. I don't know about anyone else but it was a hard winter, and I'm not talking about the weather. I was so on edge, so upset, so tired, just everything you didn't want to be. To make it worse I didn't really know why it was. I am becoming less miserable every day, thank God. I have slowly begun digging deeper into myself and attempting to figure out why I have some of the thoughts, feelings, hindrances that I have. More on that later.

There is a medium sized church down the street from my house here at school, on one of the main roads in town. Their sign reads "God knows about last week, and he wants to talk." For those of you a little on the thick side, they are referring to spring break.

Maybe I'm wrong but I don't envision God to be like the grade school teachers of years past who come and swat your hand with a ruler when you've done wrong. That's how I read this sign anyways. It sends this message across that what the college kids here in Carbondale may or may not have done over spring break is more of a disappointment to God than anything anyone else did. Maybe I'm reading too much into this. I don't believe any message of condemnation to be what Jesus had in mind for his church. Again, that's just me.

The starter went out in my car today. Apparently it was too much to wish for 3 months of no car problems. Why?

There are several thought blogs I've been thinking about for quite some time now (like since Christmas). I just haven't been able to put them together. This seems to be a trend in many parts of our bloggerworld.

My roommate and I watched American Beauty last night (sorry Jules). I had forgotten how much I loved that movie. It had probably been 2 years since I'd seen it. It's just one of those movies that I feel is so much more real than the polished happy endings junk that Hollywood churns out every week. It's not that I enjoy watching the struggle, I enjoy the recognition of its existence.

I am tossing around the idea of taking summer classes. Two in fact, a psychology class along with a philosophy class. 4 weeks long, 5 days a week, about 2.5 hours each. I need to make up my mind soon. What do you think?

I'm sorry if this blog disappoints. But like a wise woman sings 20 times a day on any pop music station, I'm not here for your entertainment.

Adios!

I know I'm not the only nerd...

Is anyone else here as super duper uber-excited about Discovery Channel's upcoming mini-series Planet Earth?

The awesomeness begins in less than two weeks...I can't wait!

Metal Roof.

You don't realize the impact your words and actions have.
Or their consequences.
You have made me question everything.
You're ruining my life.
I hate you for making me feel this way.
I don't even know who you are.

But I'm bitter.
Sitting.
Stewing.

It's easier to keep digging, than to climb out.
So I keep digging.
And digging.
A little more.

And then finally,
The rain, on my metal roof.
Washing the world.. my world clean.

It feels good.
It is good.

But it's over.
And I quickly forget the redemption it brought.

This metal roof. This exterior.
Always clean.
But what about what's underneath?
It longs for the rain.
And true redemption.

My shovel is worn.
But I keep digging.
With soaked hands.
Not from rain.
But tears.
I'm so tired of digging.

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