March came.
Thank GOD its leaving.
Not much of a post really, just wanted to let you all know I was still alive and kicking. Several random thoughts lie ahead.
Spring is finally here! I realized that today when I was at Kroger and the fruit seemed so much fresher! I bought fresh(not prepackaged) oranges, bananas, tomatoes, pears, and a cantaloupe. The tomatoes are gone, oranges are half gone, and the cantaloupe was a great after dinner treat. I love spring.
I really love this spring. It represents the end of the DREADFUL winter I just went through. I don't know about anyone else but it was a hard winter, and I'm not talking about the weather. I was so on edge, so upset, so tired, just everything you didn't want to be. To make it worse I didn't really know why it was. I am becoming less miserable every day, thank God. I have slowly begun digging deeper into myself and attempting to figure out why I have some of the thoughts, feelings, hindrances that I have. More on that later.
There is a medium sized church down the street from my house here at school, on one of the main roads in town. Their sign reads "God knows about last week, and he wants to talk." For those of you a little on the thick side, they are referring to spring break.
Maybe I'm wrong but I don't envision God to be like the grade school teachers of years past who come and swat your hand with a ruler when you've done wrong. That's how I read this sign anyways. It sends this message across that what the college kids here in Carbondale may or may not have done over spring break is more of a disappointment to God than anything anyone else did. Maybe I'm reading too much into this. I don't believe any message of condemnation to be what Jesus had in mind for his church. Again, that's just me.
The starter went out in my car today. Apparently it was too much to wish for 3 months of no car problems. Why?
There are several thought blogs I've been thinking about for quite some time now (like since Christmas). I just haven't been able to put them together. This seems to be a trend in many parts of our bloggerworld.
My roommate and I watched American Beauty last night (sorry Jules). I had forgotten how much I loved that movie. It had probably been 2 years since I'd seen it. It's just one of those movies that I feel is so much more real than the polished happy endings junk that Hollywood churns out every week. It's not that I enjoy watching the struggle, I enjoy the recognition of its existence.
I am tossing around the idea of taking summer classes. Two in fact, a psychology class along with a philosophy class. 4 weeks long, 5 days a week, about 2.5 hours each. I need to make up my mind soon. What do you think?
I'm sorry if this blog disappoints. But like a wise woman sings 20 times a day on any pop music station, I'm not here for your entertainment.
Adios!
Monday, March 26, 2007
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6 cheers & jeers:
this seemed like you had much more to say than you thought...
Yeah I know, I really didn't foresee it being that long.
We were in carbondale on Saturday at the track meet...JR's brother runs at UofI. Neat campus from what we could tell. I'd go for the summer class, anything you can get by without having to go all semester would be good. I had a summer class that was 4 hours a day 5 days a week!
Would a summer class interfere with camp?
Totally with you, Nathan. If you've read the email I sent you yesterday, you'll understand even more clearly why I'm with you on the "condemnation of God" thing.
And, for the most part, I LOATHE those stupid church billboard supposedly cutesy slogans that don't do anything but remind people what a shallow perspective most of us inside those walls have of a powerful and LOVING God...many church members (especially the writers of those sweet little "messages from God") would do well to step outside their safe little walls and get a glimpse of what real life is...and then maybe they (we) would get a bit of a clue about what it really takes to reach the hurting. (Hint--it's NOT a billboard.)
Ummm...sorry. The bear's come out of her hibernation a little early maybe... ;-)
I so know what you mean about this spring being....special perhaps...more meaningful. I had the dreadful winter as well and like you, it had nothing to do with the weather. I think a good deal of it has to do with sifting and shaking...being pressed on the potters wheel. We are all being tested and tried in ways we never imagined. I pray we all hang in there to see what God has in store. It will be so worth it in the end.This is a scripture from one of the new versions of the Bible, can't recall whihc one at the moment. I liked it so I jotted it down failing to note the version but it is relevant....
So, we're not giving up. How could we?! Even though on the outside it often looks like things are falling apart on us, on the inside, where God is making new life, not a day goes by without his unfolding grace. These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming good times, the lavish celebration prepared for us. There's far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can't see now will last forever.
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