Yeah...I got the time.

I have spent more time doing nothing this week than I've spent doing something constructive in the past month.

It's interesting how you can think about your life and the things you struggle with, and you pray and seek help in those areas. You think you know yourself but many times we don't even realize the mess we are in. I never seriously thought about how I spend my time until earlier this week. It occurred to me that I am pretty much don't accomplish much on a daily basis that betters my life, this world, or the Kingdom. I get up, go to class, come home and watch tv and sleep some more.

It's a routine I have somehow gotten myself into. I don't know if it is a result of technology and making it easy to access any information I would need within minutes..Or if it's my school who does not really require much of my time outside the classroom.. or if it's simply my laziness and inability to see the things around me and the things I need to be doing.

Appearantly my communication with God is like a baby monitor. He's sitting up there with the reciever while I'm down here crying all the time. I have no problem telling him my junk but for some reason I'm not open to hearing how he wants to fix it. I'm never able to just listen to what he has to say. If I were, I would probably be doing more. I wouldn't be this earthly lump taking up space and using valuable oxygen. He has a plan, and I need to be willing to listen.

P.S. Also, head over to Dena's Blog, she's speaking volumes these days.

P.S.S. Lost is back in 1 week! (I couldn't resist)

It's my birthday!!

YYIIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!